“Remember you are dust and to dust you shall return”.
At first sight those words seem strange and depressing –
after all it seems as though we might just be reminding ourselves of the
inevitability of death and sort of driving ourselves into the ground. Ash
Wednesday seems like precisely the sort of negative publicity which the church
should be avoiding, the negativity, the emphasis on sin and our generally
miserable demeanour.
In fact, I find Ash Wednesday, and Lent in general, an
enormous relief. I have to have no motive for being here, other than wanting to
stand before god as exactly who I am in exactly the state I am in – good and
bad together.
If we take this opportunity afforded by the Church calendar
seriously, to consider our createdness and those pieces of that createdness
which so desperately need mending and healing Ash Wednesday becomes the
beginning of joy and hope.
Discipline is another word which the Church would probably
do well to avoid if we want to be popular in the world around us. After all
discipline reeks of old school teachers with bad breath tying up our enthusiasm
for life with needless and endless rules and regulations. But then there is
that other and much more liberating side to discipline, that piece which we all
know we need. That piece which says I
will not eat that second piece of chocolate cake because…….
Lent stands at the beginning of an arc of Church time which
really will not end until Pentecost. In this arc we will find the whole story
of the Church, and if we pause long enough to find it, the whole story of
ourselves in Christ. There is no magic, or secret. There are simply points at
which, during our life, we must come before God, kneel down and say – sorry,
this is where I messed up, help me to do better. There is no shortcut and
depending on the year that has been, on the places where we are walking, on the
folk around us, that very process of saying sorry will be more or less painful.
Lent though is not a one step process, it is not just the
saying of sorry it is learning the living of sorry, and this is a very
different thing. This is the thing that it is hard to explain. We have
sometimes created a bit of a fairy-tale out of our faith which says that is you
say that you believe in Jesus loudly enough and boldly enough in every situation
then that will be enough.
I am not sure about you, but I would not want to be operated
on by a brain surgeon whose sole qualification was saying very loudly many
times that she was a brain surgeon. Saying we are Christians and living into
that faith are steps along a journey – one is not enough without the other. We
must engage with the word of God, with Christian community. We must endeavour
to learn our faith both by practicing its various aspects and through academic
study. We must participate in activities of the Church – in worship and the
sacraments – and all of these things are discipline – and this is hard for us
in a world where everything else is pretty much divided into work and not-work.
Work is what I have to do to make ends meet, to survive, to
pay the bills. Not work is everything else and, often because work is pretty
miserable, I want the not-work to be fun all the time and I am disappointed and
want to give up when it is not.
The bad news is that being a Christian is not 24/7
entertainment – it is not all about feeling good about ourselves – it is about
so much more. It is about those moments when we really need answers, when we
run out of steam, when words fail or things are just not as they should be – in
other words it is about those moments when we need the sort of healing which
goes beyond doctors and medicine and then suddenly it is OK that we are dust,
to dust we shall return – because suddenly that makes sense.
The God who made us, formed us, created us, atom upon atom
still holds us, calls us onwards and towards home.
The Gospel today might seem to you, as it often does to me,
an odd choice. Don’t disfigure your faces, says Jesus, just before we put ash
on our heads. Of course, the Gospel is
less about what we are doing and much more about where our hearts and minds are
settled. If for one second you are walking out of here today in order to parade
your Ash – please wipe it off before you go anywhere. But my guess is, in this society
that does not go very far, the risk of ridicule is far higher than any
perceived sense of superiority we might ever feel from a dirty smudge on our
heads.
The real question is then, where is your heart? Is your
heart a heart of dust, longing for the creator, knowing from whence it came –
yearning for where it is going. Are you standing broken-hearted, waiting for
the wholeness and healing that this Lenten journey can bring. Ready to do the
work, put in the hours, take a step forward in the right direction.
You see that is the other thing the Gospel is about, Jesus
is looking for a single step in the right direction, he is desperate for the
breaking down of those awful barriers of self-determination which the people
have set up around themselves – let me in, let me be in you - might be his single plea to them.
Broken hearted is not about being depressed and miserable
for the next forty days, it is about leaving enough space for God to work.
Whatever outward disciplines you choose, it is the inner work of the Spirit
which you are making space for. As we come forward today, we are simply who we
are, who God made us, open and ready to begin a journey.
Remember we are all dust, and to dust we shall return.
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