Holy Brit

Sometimes, when I am tired, I worry, like a lot of people, about being good enough. Now, I do know better than to tease and harass myself with this worry but still it seems to be something that people are good at - thinking that somehow, we should be something more than we are - and that is precisely - people.

People are messy and moody. People do all sorts of wonderful and talented things and then, as if to prove a point to the universe, seem to have to to an almost equal amount of foolish things to make sure that we can worry ourselves to death about not being good enough.

Thank goodness for Christian theology - without it I would be lost. I am not sure what I would do with those days when I feel really junky if I did not have the knowledge - deep down - that God says I am good enough and thinks so to such an extent that Jesus came to save me. That sounds so simple and simplistic that it should not be able to be true in this world of complications - but it really is. I am OK because God says I am - even when I don't really believe it.

One of the best lessons I ever learned about sin was this - that thinking that you are worse than everyone else is not humility it is a sort of pride and this is definitely a sin - let someone else be worse than you at something - it actually makes a difference in life - and anyway keeping up that standard of perfect imperfection is hard work.

We are all OK because God says we are and we have to allow that to be true both in ourselves and each other. Value is in our reflection in Christ not our worry about our failings.