Love

I was thinking I would go back to offering careful comments on the readings today but when I was thinking about Lent and Lenten disciplines and penitence earlier I was struck so heavily by the image of the pinnacle of the Temple I have not been able to shake it all day.

After my happy reminder that God is indeed in all things the let down was that I might rely on that a little too heavily at times. There is a fine line between "letting go and letting God," and letting go just to check out that God is still around at all. The latter is probably the most natural of reactions when something bad happens - thanks God we say, why did that happen - you have a lot to make up for.....so if you are real........

I am not sure that I am accusing myself of cynical testing - I often accuse myself of spiritual laziness but this blog is not the place to trawl through my manifold sins and wickednesses.

The Gospel is about loving with all that we are and have - that sort of love only comes from finding God at the bottom - at least the people I have met who have the most love seem to know that God is in the cracks crevices. I suppose what I am cautious about is that none of us use the fact that God always loves as an excuse not to love or not to try. At the bottom that can be hard but as we climb out if we are holding back with the excuse that God will pick up for us then perhaps that is a little to close to a test and it is ourselves we will ultimately deprive of love.